Work

Sorry for the lack of updates, but I work full-time now as a CONSERVATIVE commentator. Unreal, right, given my liberal past?

I work at Downtrend full-time.

And I also operate Conservative News Feed.

And I am also involved in a wonderful LDR with a beautiful young Indian woman who has Down's Syndrome. We are very close and I think I'm going to marry her one day :-).

Take care!

Equalization of Opportunity

I want to take a moment to talk about Atlas Shrugged, a book that I am GREATLY enjoying! Because I don't feel like writing an in-depth synopsis, I will assume readers of this post have read it. However, I'll try to leave hints where I can.

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So this book has me feeling stuck in a contradiction. I want the main characters, namely Dagny Taggart and Henry Rearden, to win because they are such hard-working, intelligent people with such strong convictions! They put their all into their work, and I respect the hell out of that!

But at the same time, such ideas as the "Equalization of Opportunity" appeal to my humanitarian side, perhaps because of my own lack of success. Face it. I not only suffer from Asperger's and Social Anxiety, but I also possess a very limited skillset, i.e., I verily suck at my job and my websites suck, period.

That said, Ayn Rand takes this notion of equality and radicalizes it so as to make a point. For instance, some Professor McDoughy suggests that book sales should be limited to 10,000. Admittedly, the notion sent me sprawling to the ground in laughter, as I would love for that stipulation to have been applied to Snooki's piece-of-crap book.

However, limiting book sales is INSANE! You can't do that! You can't undercut one business so as to level out the field like the struggling Taggart Transcontinental did to the booming Phoenix-Durango via the National Railroad Alliance's Anti-Dog-Eat-Dog Rule. That goes against the very notion of free market capitalism.

You can't take down Booming Business A just to even things out for Suckass Business B. But damn... could we not let Business A thrive while at the same time doing something -- anything -- to improve the chances of Business B, C, D and so-on succeeding? Couldn't we just give them a boost of some type?

I guess this book is inspiring deep introspection. I expect to die in the same position I am now -- stuck and moving neither forward nor backwards. Merely stationary in place. Limited funds. No woman. A simple existence making ends meet. I guess my question is this:

Does my desire to be afforded an opportunity to live a much better, more fruitful live fit with the doctrines of free market capitalism, or would such a chance only be provided under the wings of a Socialistic society that promotes the "Equalization of Opportunity"?

#Shrugs

Thoughts Of Anger

So I got some deep thoughts on my mind and I need to write. This will, however, not be a rant. If anything, it’ll be an emotional overview of some things I’ve been through.

You see, I fly out in a few days and I am greatly not looking forward to being at the airport. The reason I’m so worried about looking my best at the airport is because of all the garbage I’ve been through at airports.

On my way back during my last trip, I stopped by an airport bar to get a drink. I was pretty excited and giddy, so I took a few photos of my beer and started texting them to my tinychat friends.

Unfortunately, the presumptuous assholes around me felt I was doing something else and began making side-of-the-neck insults insinuating that I was some sort of perv and that I was taking inappropriate pics of the waitress. I guess she herself felt that way too, because she gave me my bill without asking me if I wanted another beer. I paid and left, but I wish I could go back and tell all of them off.

“Believe it or not, you fucking assholes, but the weird-looking, awkward in your presence was just taking pictures of his beer!”

It’s stuff like this that makes me hate being in public. I literally prefer being confined in my room, away from the world, because I’m so tired of shit like this.

Then one time at the airport, the plane was late and the whole area was just brimming with people. I had an anxiety attack and started just walking around and looking around, trying to find anything to hold my attention. It’s like the whole room turned against me. People started making rude comments and frowning at me. One guy even told his kid that I’m some sort of freak.

And this then takes me back to college. I was in class. Feeling nervous. Was looking around the room, my eyes big, all nervous. This one guy asked the girl next to him, “Why’s he doing that?” She replied, “Because he’s an asshole.”

Then another time, I was taking the shuttle in Portland to the airport. A couple was in front of me and the woman was cute. I looked at her one time and was like wow, but I looked away. It turned out we were headed to the same airport bay or whatever and so I ended up going in the same direction as them.

Once I got into the airport, I steered away into a little shop to eat. As I was eating, I see the same couple out the corner of my eye, talking to a security guard and pointing at me. Oh, yes. I guess just because I happened to look at her and head the same direction as them, and because I’m a quiet weirdo, I’m obviously some psychopathic pervert out to get them.

And then another time back when I was younger, bussing tables at MCL cafeteria, I was cleaning a table when I noticed two women looking at me. I looked up at them and then quickly down at my work. What did they do? One of them said fairly loudly, “That guy’s going to be a serial killer one day.”

And then back in the day, I was in the line to buy shoes at Foot Locker and I wanted to count my money to see how much I had left to get other stuff, and the guy behind me makes the side-of-the-neck comment, “Stop showing off, asshole!” As if I’m rich. And I’m just standing there, being quiet and respectful.

Irony. I’m actually a very nice guy, but yet the entire world acts like I’m some sort of giant asshole and monster. And then they get mad at me and look at me in anger when I finally loose my cool and go off on everybody.

What the fuck do ya’ll think years of this sort of abuse has done to me emotionally? And do ya’ll realize how much I have to focus to keep my temper in check? And how hard it is dealing with a life where I lack the courage to stand up for myself in public and so insulate everything until I finally blow up in Facebook rants that nobody understands?

Do ya’ll have ANY IDEA what that’s like?

I wish I were so rich I could afford to have an 8-foot-tall African black guy with dreads around me at all times. Whenever I hung out with hood niggaz in public, NOBODY ever said a damn thing. Why? Because they’re scared to death of hood niggaz, which is why I got so much love for the hood.

Yeah, I get upset with the hood at times because I’ve become somewhat ‘bougie’ from years of being away, but I’ll never forget the respect I received by just being in the PRESENCE of hood niggaz.

It’s ironic. I’m a nice guy who’s quiet and so respectful. I say my Thank You’s, Excuse Me’s and Sorry’s, and yet people SHIT on me nonstop in the “real world” as some of you refer to it. And then you wonder why I find it so much easier and more peaceful to just remain confined in this dingy-ass room.

It’s not like I don’t want to go out and live. It’s just that I’m tired – so damn tired – of being treated like fucking shit and not having the power to fight back and put people in their place for wronging me.

Yep… that’s my life.

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Has anybody else experienced stuff like this – like instances of total disrespect? How did you handle it? And does it still bother you like these experiences haunt me?

Thanks for listening and responding!!!

PS – I’m not crazy, I’m not mean-spirited and I’m not an asshole! I’m actually very nice and genuine, but after being treated like shit for so long, I’ve built a rough edge to protect myself. And I tell you this… it will take the love of one hell of a woman to ever soften me up again, #deadass!

Paul Krugman vs Jason Lewis: The War Of Ideologies

Sorry for the lack of posts. I verily just don't care anymore. However, I did want to share this 'brilliant' piece I wrote.

America possesses two primary system of political thought, which for the purpose of this article I will label as Krugman Ideology and Lewis Ideology. Let’s look at my life as an example to illustrate these systems.

I have amassed an incredible amount of debt within the past decade, and yet my income has barely grown. How should I proceed?

Krugman Ideology entails maintaining my current spending patterns while investing in new opportunities, in the hope that my investments eventually peg out and free me from the shackles of debt.

Lewis Ideology option requires I cut spending — remove cigarettes, pizza Fridays and beer from my life, as an example — on the premise that the money saved can be allocated toward my burgeoning debt.

Which option should I choose? As an outside party, I would obviously recommend the second path, as it represents a more responsible conduit towards fiscal sanity. But as the man who lives this life, I cannot imagine giving away the few luxuries I enjoy.

I have no GF, I have no friends, I suffer from impotence as per anti-depressant medications and I have Asperger Syndrome. Cigarettes, pizza and beer frankly provide the few moments of happiness I have in my life.

However, to simply let my debt grow would be foolish and irresponsible, so I must cut spending somewhere. As a result, I rarely shop for clothes, I always check for discounts at the grocery store and I am attempting to reduce my cigarette and beer consumption.

This leads me to an ideology that, for the purposes of this piece, I shall refer to as the Victorious Ideology, or V Ideology. It’s a centrist driven position that combines Krugman’s investment stimulus with Lewis’ spending cuts.

By applying V Ideology to politics, I therefore conclude that the government should continue investing in infrastructure, education and business, while also slashing entitlements and reforming the tax code to make it more progressive (not regressive).

The key to life, my dear friends, lies in moderation—or, simply put, a mixture of extremist dogmas into a single centrist ideology that features the best of both worlds.

Ain't Gon Let Up (DJ Yola)

Hey. I’m going to start out by talking about Trayvon Martin, after which I’m going to archive all my week’s major thoughts for my own reference, as FB tends to delete shit all willy nilly, SMDH!

And oh… do you mind not flagging my post? I spent forever putting this together. If you don’t like it, could you just go on to another post? I’m sorry I’m not writing as creatively anymore, but I’m HELLA busy working a job, keeping my websites running and maintaining a Tinychat social life!

The Case of Trayvon Martin vs George Zimmerman

Rightwing extremists are trying to paint this as a political issue, while emotional black people are trying to paint it as a racial one. I believe it is neither. It is, in my opinion, a simple case of nepotism. The Sanford police foolishly felt it prudent to allow George Zimmerman to go free, lest they offend his father, the former Virginia Supreme Court Magistrate Judge Robert Zimmerman.

Radio host Michael Baisden said it best earlier today when he decreed that this is neither a racial issue nor a political issue, but rather an American issue that deserves the attention of every one of us. He continued by noting that such miscarriages of justice occur to more than just black kids; they occur to white kids, Asian kids, Hispanic kids and more. It’s a national epidemic that must be curbed.

That said, such miscarriages occur most frequently among black people because crime is most prevalent among their communities. So while I fervently support justice for Trayvon Martin, I also sincerely hope that black folks in general wake up and start taking a stand for the sake of both their children and their own futures. If they themselves won’t fight for change, who will?

As for Zimmerman, though I possess no official training in law, my love for ‘law and order’ type shows leads me to believe that there is more than enough evidence to convince a Grand Jury to indict the bastard. Perhaps the introduction of new evidence will eventually absolve him, or perhaps it’ll provide definitive proof that he did indeed murder Trayvon. Regardless, it’s time for the courts to decide!

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I’m sorry if I offended any black folk out there. The racist garbage being written about Trayvon disgusts me as well. However, the issue still boils due to nepotism. FYI... I too have been pulled over for being outside in a hoodie at night. It happened about 1.5 years ago, in fact, when I was running along Buffaloe Road in NE Raleigh. Point being that I’m not talking out of my ass.

Sorry regardless, but … this is how I feel :-(.

Thoughts Galore

I have had a terrific week. I got a lot of work done, I feel lean and good (tho I need to quit smoking and take more supplements) and I’m not worried about being single, though I am still lonely AF… lonely AF for a woman who’s a lawyer! SWAGG!

// Obamacare Benefits

Interesting. So oral arguments are being given to the Supreme Court this week regarding Obamacare. The decision, however, won't be made until summer. That's unfortunate. I'd rather know now.

#1. Easier to track if doctors are prescribing medications because they're best for you or because of a pharmaceutical company's influence.

#2. Employers must provide a room for breastfeeding.

#3. Calories will be listed under fast-food menu items. (I love this one.)

#4. $50 million / year for abstinence-only education. (kind of useless)

#5. A limit to flexible spending accounts.

#6. Higher taxes on tanning. (GOOD)

#7. Incentives to small businesses that start wellness initiatives.

#8. Full coverage for preventative care. (EXCELLENT)

#9. Funding to support childhood home visitation in the hope of reduce child abuse/neglect and promoting the health of mothers and their children.

#10. More easily readable health plans.

\\ Negativity Deserves Compassion, Not Disregard

[Researchers even looked at actual Facebook friends because, Forest says, "you might think that a real friend would care if you're expressing negativity." It turned out actual friends didn't like the negative posts, either. The posts actually backfired, neither winning the author new friends nor generating good feelings.]

That's a damn shame. When I encounter someone who feels troubled for whatever reason, I tend to reach out and offer a comforting hand. Unfortunately, society has become so bloody indifferent to the problems of others that they just don't care anymore. What a pity.

What I despise most are those who refuse to take a stand for anything -- individuals who lack core principles/convictions and then have the audacity to look down at those who do possess the aforementioned. Being expressive, opinionated and willing to fight for what you believe in is a positive trait, regardless of the spin.

// Corporations Aren’t People

Reform groups are urging the Securities and Exchange Commission (SEC) to require that publicly traded companies disclose contributions/donations that they make to politically engaged parties like super PACs. They're currently able to hide such information because of the damn Citizens United v. Federal Election Commission decision in 2012, which, for clarification, designated corporations as people.

[Reformers targeting the SEC are concerned about a specific type of political spending: contributions to nonprofits and trade groups engaged in direct electoral efforts that do not have to disclose their funders. Such groups, both right- and left-wing, include the U.S. Chamber of Commerce, Crossroads GPS, Americans for Prosperity and Priorities USA.]

Basically, you got rich people funding political campaigns to have their own laws put into place or laws with which they disagree thrown out. And this is all being done behind closed doors without any transparency whatsoever.

The Wall Street Journal and similar like=minded "business allies" are throwing Unions under the bus, painting these "efforts as part of a multi-year campaign by unions, left-wing activists and their factotums to expose and then vilify companies that disagree with them."

Um... sorry to bust their bubbles, but Unions are required to disclose WTF they do regarding political spending.

\\ The Dictator

I'm disgusted. God forbid the government intervene to try to make things better. It all stems down to people's refusal to have the government regulate a bit of their lives. I'm sorry, but considering the current state of society, I'm all up for government regulation. Endless murders, kids & adults alike acting like mindless fools and a society devoid of compassion but brimming with greed and superficiality lead me to believe what this country needs more than ever is more government regulation and control, especially in the healthcare department.

Somebody once said I must have been a dictator or king a former life. I'm apt to agree, LOL.

// My Selflessness Makes Me Want To Cry

Another great Obamacare argument, courtesy of the Washington Post.

The average family pays an extra $1,000 annually in premiums to subsidize the costs of those who don't have insurance. If you currently have insurance, you're basically paying for my coverage. Thank you!

If the mandate is allowed to come to fruition, douchebags like me will be forced to allocate beer/cigarette money towards actually being responsible and acquiring insurance, which in turn will lower ya'lls bloody premiums.

So in effect, I should be against the mandate, shouldn't I? It's going to cost ME money. I won't be able to just ignore healthcare anymore. Did you know, for instance, that I owe about 20K in healthcare-related expenses? I'm not paying any of it, though, so who do you think is paying for it? BINGO!

The reason I'm in favor of the mandate, though it will make my own life harder, is because it's for my and the country's betterment.

Ahhh.. my selflessness never ceases to amaze me, hahaha.

SWAG, bitches!

\\ The Zoo Hypothesis / Prime Directive

Morning everybody! I just stumbled on this piece and had to share it. It's fascinating, as is the discussion that follows.

Many ask why, if they exist, other civilizations haven't contacted us yet. I subscribe to the 'zoo hypothesis,' which states that alien life forms capable of interstellar travel purposefully avoid contact to allow for our natural evolution and deployment.

Basically, despite our great accomplishments, we humans are still a very culturally, ethically, politically and technologically primitive species. We can barely get along among ourselves; now imagine us trying to get along among hundreds or more equal (if not superior) life forms?

// Irrelevant

Hmm. The Nation argues that the fate of 'Obamacare' is somewhat irrelevant, because without a single-payer "Medicare for All" public option, "we will not have universal coverage, medical bills will still push too many Americans into bankruptcy or prompt them to self-ration care, and insurance companies will continue to have a choke hold on our health."

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Premiums have risen 50% in the last 7 years.

Premiums represent 20% of 6 out of 10 Americans' median earnings.

Approximately 30 million Americans were contacted in 2010 by collection agencies because of medical bills.

More people are using emergency rooms for routine problems "at a cost of 10 times more than preventive care with fewer treatment options."

The number of uninsured Americans is at an all-time high, as is the number of insured Americans who "massive holes int heir health plans."

US life expectancy rates trail those of countries with better healthcare, e.g., Canada.

Etc. Etc. Etc.

"The consequences of the denial of care en masse—now and in the future, with or without the ACA—could not be more ominous. Only more comprehensive reform, Medicare for Life, for all Americans, will finally produce real healthcare security for our country."

Basically, 'Obamacare' is only the first step toward real reform.

\\ Conservative Swagg

Courtesy The Colbert Report. Conservatives aren't faring well with the youth, so conservatives have launched this magazine (available as a 52-page PDF download), and it's quite entertaining!

Here are some sample titles:

RONALD REAGAN: Our First Black President? (ROFLOL)
GLEE: Songs, Sex & Sleaze
How to Draw Obama (ROFLOL)
Understanding Liberals
Government Creates Poverty

I sooooooooo WANT A COPY OF THIS!

// Pink Slime

Unreal. Republicans (or at least their governors) support the production and distribution of 'pink slime,' which refers to "ammoniated and heat treated highly processed low-quality beef tallow byproduct meat trimmings." (Wiki)

Sighs...

These are the same people who are rallying around George Zimmerman while complaining that Trayvon Martin was just a "hood rat thug" and that Sharpton and Jackson are just "race baiters."

These are the same people who are for insider trading, reduced taxes on the rich and an insurance company's right to deny coverage because of preexisting conditions.

These are the same people who are against cutting subsidies to oil companies that are already making billions of dollars, but who are for cutting aid to the indigent, handicapped and elderly.

These are the same people who mock the Green movement's attempt to reduce pollution, protect endangered species and safeguard this planet for future generations.

I just don't get it anymore; I give up! Verily, I do! Everything about modern conservatism is completely ass backwards.

\\ Moral Crisis

Brilliant op-ed by Katrina vanden Heuvel.

This starts by noting that GOP candidates feel there is a moral crisis in America regarding abortion, gay marriage an contraception, to name a few.

She then asserts that they're right: there is a moral crisis. But they themselves (the conservatives) are the ones behind it.

Paul Ryan's "Path to Prosperity" plan is a perfect example:

[It’s a plan that says that increases in defense spending are so essential, that massive tax cuts for the wealthy are so necessary, that we must pay for them by ripping a hole in the social safety net. The poor need Medicaid to pay for medicine and treatment for their families? We care, we really do, but the wealthy need tax cuts more. Food stamps the only thing standing between your children and starvation? Listen, we feel your pain. We get it. But we’ve got more important things to spend money on. Like a new yacht for that guy who only has one yacht.]

They don't care about damage being done to the environment.

They don't care about corporate lobbyists controlling the political system.

They don't care about Wall Street benefiting from destroying people's lives and livelihoods.

They don't care about people who are laid off from work and subsequently lose their healthcare.

They don't care about women's right to affordable healthcare and privacy from intrusion into their uterus.

All they care about is freedom, liberty and the endless pursuit of wealth no matter what or who it hurts.

// Grow Up Part 1

Sighs @ Jason Lewis trying to turn the Trayvon Martin incident into one about race and politics, when it's in fact one about race and JUSTICE. According to him, the incident has inspired a 'racial divide' or 'war' unlike anything he's ever seen before. Dude, just because a few num-nut dummies like Spike Lee and Roseanne Barr are acting a fool doesn't mean every got damn black person wants to go cracker huntin', you big, giant dummy!

I mean shit... how do you think Valerie Plume felt when, after being outed by the Washington Post as one of the spies who discovered there were in fact no WMDs in Iraq, she faced death threats galore from pro-Bush extremists?

At least that situation was actually about politics. This situation is about race and justice. The dynamics are obviously far more complex than those mere two words can accurately depict, but they do not in any way, shape or form include politics.

I'm sorry Obama didn't apologize to the parents of James Cooper and James Kouzaris for their ruthless murder by a black teenager, but the difference is, you fucking moron, that the murderer was ARRESTED, TRIED and SENTENCED TO PRISON, while Zimmerman is still free due to either a piss-poor police department, nepotism or good ol' fashioned racism. Think on THAT, JACK!

\\ Grow Up Part 2

Joe Scarborough (my most-favorite ever conservative) on Trayvon Martin:

[Why is it that some on the right are actually taking this up as a cause? When, as the National Review said almost immediately after it happened, this has nothing to do with gun rights; this has nothing to do with the second amendment; this has nothing to do with “Stand Your Ground laws; this has nothing to do with the NRA. This has everything to do with a guy that’s trying to play security cop, who is unhinged, who chased down and shot a 17-year-old kid armed with Skittles and iced tea…Some of these guys on the right are jumping in with both feet on the far right. They should listen to the National Review and wise conservative thinkers and not take this up as a cause, but they are. And they're trashing Trayvon Martin. It’s disgusting.

Some websites, including some racist websites, but also sadly some fairly mainstream websites are actually going in to Trayvon Martin's social media pages -- be it Twitter or Myspace -- and they're trying to find ominous-looking pictures while skipping over pictures of him holding up a birthday cake smiling, him fishing with his dad, him standing outside proudly at his home dressed in a tux ready to go to the prom. But they're trying to cherry pick pictures, trying to make him look ominous, somehow suggesting that he deserved getting shot in the chest with a 9mm because they find a picture that may make him look like that.]

It's right-wing extremists taking advantage of a situation to dismiss black people, black culture and liberals in general. I wear my hat sideways, I use a shitload of curse words and I love rap music. Do I therefore deserve to die? Am I a 'thug'?

"This is beneath contempt. And these people on the far-right are being fools to try to make this a political issue."

\\ Continuation

I gotta say, while I have many issues with hiphop culture, I vehemently believe that a thuggish demeanor does not necessarily make one a thug. Plus, there's a tremendous difference between a 17-year-old boy and a grown man. I meet a lot of kids in TinyChat who possess a gangsterish nature to them, but many of them are pursuing positive things: they're studying, designing graphics, producing music, etc. To blatantly assume that anyone who steers from the status quo is therefore a violent and dangerous thug is not only intolerant, but it's also quite foolhardy.

Furthermore, kids will be kids. There's no difference between a 17-year-old guy who likes hiphop and a 17-year-old guy who likes heavy metal. Believe me. I've dealt with both types of cats in my life, and they're practically equivalent, save for the color of their skin.

// My New Job

Though the work shall remain a tad limited until I get upgraded from a novice and accepted into more channels, I’m starting to really love my new job with ***** (I don't plan on changing my listed job because I don't want to make them look bad with my very unprofessional FB page). Let me tell you why:

#1. Consistency: I have ONE editor. Over at DMS, I had a 1000+ editors with differing styles and preferences. One editor would tell me to do something, and then another editor would tell me NOT to do that very same thing.

#2. Respect: My editor and supervisor respect my feedback. As an example, my supervisor just upped a $15 assignment to $35 because I mentioned how I put a lot more work into it than had been expected of me.

#3. Intimacy: Whereas I felt like an assembly line worker at DMS, at LoveToKnow I feel like an important part of a team. I didn't give a shit about my work at DMS, but with L2K, I feel compelled to do my best every time!

Last Reason: WOMEN! My editor and supervisor are both women, and I gotta tell you, it's so much easier working for women than it is working for men! They're more patient, they're better listeners and they're just better, period!

// I like dealing with women on a professional level. The personal stuff is what brings out my misogynist side. For example, I once heard a few sluts at a former job talking about dick sizes, and it really irritated me.


\\ S01E11 of The Firm! || Modern Folklore!

This episode is about a real-life case in Oregon where death-row inmates were denied the right to donate their organs to people who needed them. Below is an op-ed pieced by inmate Christian Longo written sometime in 2011. What a travesty it is that the bodies of prisoners are just discarded, when instead they could be put to greater use. The EGO of some in 'law n order' field!

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Ugh. The argument against this is that it gives the inmate power. WHO CARES? So long as it saves the life of an innocent, who cares? Are we so damn desperate for punishment that we'll just wantonly condemn innocents to death because the doner may perhaps take some pleasure in it!?

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Excuse the chess slang, but CHECK from the Fourth Circuit court of appeals: "Wouldn't allowing targeted donations create the possibility of pay-offs to inmates' families by people desperate for vital organs?"

That is a damn fair and thought-provoking argument, though I don't see why the slim chance an inmate's family might benefit justifies denying an organ to a needy person.

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Oooh another theme in this episode. Imagine saving life after life while at war, only to discover most of them resent you because they would have rather died than return home severely damaged/burned and lose everything they ever had. Mmm...

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What a BRILLIANT episode. It's thought-provoking episodes like this that keep me coming back to this show. It's not always on point, but when it is, it's absolutely amazing! There truly is no greater way to challenge the mind and teach a lesson than through FICTION! Real f**king talk! It's why tall tales and folklore exist! Except this is MODERN folklore!

// Final Thoughts

PS #1 – Thank you Seth MacFarlane for putting me onto Fringe!

PS #2 – Stop being lazy and set up a PODCAST so I can watch your show Saturday mornings, Bill Maher!

PS #3 – I’m so glad my dog is gone. There’s SOOO much less hair in my room. It’s unreal!

PS #4 – Would you ladies who post in Craigslist Women 4 Men please include a photo? You ain’t gotta be a supermodel, but you gotta at least weigh my weight (170) or less. I’m sorry, but I’m not attracted to fat women. If it makes you feel better, there are far more men attracted to fat women than there are women attracted to me.

PS #5 – Stay SWAGGed out. And excuse any rap videos that appear either 2nite or tomorrow night. Alcohol and other stuff do weird things to me.

O-GOD / SODMG



IDK how DF it happened, but I somehow became a dick-ridin' Soulja Boy fan. SMDH @ what a mid-life crisis can do to a nugga!

Sighs.

Evening.

I’m not posting this on Craigslist because they can suck my cock. And I’m not really putting any effort into it either. Henceforth, this will mainly just be an archive of my top FB posts.

A few updates, though.

Megean is a bitch and I’m never speaking to her again.
Angelina and I now speak almost daily and follow each other on Twitter.
I’m lonely AF and sick and tired of it.
I made good money this week.

YAY for me.

Thanks for tuning in, and feel free to send a donation by either Paypalin’ SaxenasSuperPAC@yahoo.com, buying an e-cigarette, purchasing web hosting or allowing me to sleep with your hot wife :-).

Holla!

Thoughts Galore

// War… What Is It Good For!?

So on Morning Joe they're talking about the guy who killed those Afghans. He was basically a stellar human being. He had an exemplary military record, he was married with kids and he even apparently used to help out disabled kids in HS whom others would pick on. But the stress of being deployed over and over again finally led him to snap. This is not an excuse for his actions, and he still deserves full punishment, but it is definitely another argument against the war.

I really feel McCain, because I too believe we can eventually stabilize Afghanistan if we stay long enough, but I can't really argue this point anymore because of the effect it's having on the soldiers. They frankly deserve better. And so do the innocent people of Afghanistan. Ultimately, we're in their country and not the other way around. We invade their country and now our soldiers snap and kill their wives and children? That's f**ked up.

\\ There Must Be Justice

Hmm. IDK. With kids acting worse and worse these days, I'm much more tempted to slam them with harsh sentences than go lightly on them. It's not even that I want such sentences to serve as a deterrent, because they don't. It's just justice.

This comment kind of sums up my attitude on the whole issue:

[Sorry but murder is murder regardless of age and a teenager who committs it deserves the same punishment as someone twice their age. Lock them up or put them down. My daughter managed to get through her teen years without beating, killing or robbing anyone as did all her friends. Don't yammer on about giving these animals a break because they're young. I don't want to hear it.]

It's just very hard to forgive the ruthless murder of another human being. And what with kids being taught to "not snitch," "respect gangsters" and "evade the law," I just don't give enough of a f**k to cut them any slack. But, lucky for kids, I'm not a prosecutor or judge, haha.

I can forgive robberies, burglaries and other relatively "petty" crimes, but murder, rape and molestation are just unforgivable to me. I know that if I were murdered, I'd want the perpetrator, however young, to pay the ultimate price, point blank.

// Nighttime Blues

Alright. Going to bed with a deep thought / rant (I know this is getting REALLY OLD, but I can't help it, lol!)

When I was a kid, teachers bullshitted me with the whole "You're so special" garbage. When I became an adult, I discovered a completely opposite world -- one that believes I'm inferior and must change to fit its standards, however screwed-up they may be. Thus, I've been taught all my adult life that I must change. And Lord knows I have changed in leaps and bounds over the years. But I'm done changing, and from henceforth I'm demanding that the world changes instead!

Cognitive thinkers would have us believe that all our problems must be internalized, because that's where they apparently emanate from. I couldn't disagree more with this mumbo jumbo garbage. Other than for my temper, which certainly could use quite a bit of work, I have no qualms with myself. I'm a smart, funny, sweet, principled, hard-working and compassionate man with deep aspirations, strong moral convictions and plenty to offer any good woman.

And yet I've never been good enough. Not when I was a 13-year-old asking out my first crush, a 16-year-old writing his first-ever love letter or even a 19-year-old who fell in love with a girl as ugly as him because he saw through to her inner personality, only to be rudely rejected for being ugly in turn. Not when I asked out a girl at the gym in my 20s. Not when I met a girl with AS on TC. Not when I met a girl who desires a simple life like me.

The only time I was good enough was when I had 30K in student loans in my bank account and I met Erica. I guess I'm just not good enough without boatloads of cash? Or better yet, it's my fault because I refuse to learn how to become a shallow, superficial dirt bag that values nothing and practices the art of 'game'? Wrong. It's these women who have proven that they're not good enough for me. That they outright refuse to give me a semblance of a chance and look deep to see the beauty within speaks epic volumes about them.

Sighs. What was my point again?

Yeah, I’m not changing to meet the standards of women or society in general. If it means I am destined to die a lonely, bitter old man, then so be it, because I will not, under any circumstance, sacrifice my values for “a piece of ass,” point blank.

//

Alright. Thanks for reading. And this is not a rant against women in general (because I got some TERRIFIC women friends on FB), but against every single bloody woman who has rejected me and every other “lame” / “ugly” guy out there for not being good enough. Let’s meet up again in 20 years and see who has a fatter bank account.

Night!

\\ Paul Ryan, Part 1

So House Budget Committee Chairman Paul Ryan revealed the GOP's 2012 budget. The path proposed by Ryan and crew will turn Medicaid into a block grant program, cut food-stamps and other domestic programs, undo cuts to the Pentagon and reform the tax code by basically empowering the rich with even more tax deductions and cuts.

Sighs.

The basic premise is to pay to empower the wealthy by cutting all the programs that benefit the poor, all while bumping up the military industrial complex with billions of more bucks to waste.

Charming.

GREAT COMMENT:

[The standard Republican Plan:

1. Tax cuts for the rich.

2. Paid for by cuts to Medicare, Medicaid and Social Security.

3. And delivered up with a promise to the ignorant hicks that the benefits to the rich will some day trickle down to them.

Does the Republican Party think we're all Fox News goobers and dumb enough to buy this?]

// Paul Ryan, Part 2

Here's the deal. I'm not very good with financial stuff. So when it comes to numbers like this, I like the charts and graphs provided by financier Steven Rattner, as they help me make sense of what is otherwise mumbo jumbo.

Obama>>>

Increase revenue by $1.4T over 10 years via increased taxes.

Cut spending by $0.2T over 10 years.

Ryan>>>

Decrease revenue by $4.1T over 10 years via reduced taxes. He has mentioned using "tax expenditures" to bring the loss back to $0, but he hasn't specified any specific expenditures yet.

Cut spending by $3.5T over 10 years by reducing civilian/military pensions, veterans' pensions, disability compensation, food stamps, unemployment compensation, earned income / child tax credits and family support & child nutrition programs.

///

Which plan makes more sense? Personally, I think making the rich pay slightly more and making moderate spending cuts makes far greater sense.

Mind you, I think Obama needs to up his spending cuts, because $0.2T over 10 years is a joke. He could do this without hurting nearly as many Americans by cutting military expenses and tightening entitlement eligibility requirements, for a start. Meanwhile, Paul Ryan needs to stop targeting the poor and disadvantaged and learn the fucking meaning of shared sacrifice!

Meh....

\\ Humility Isn’t A Sin

Great article where LZ Granderson compares Obama to Franklin D. Roosevelt, citing a 1945 speech Roosevelt made to Congress in which he said, “The structure of world peace cannot be the work of one man, or one party, or one nation, it cannot be just an American peace, or British peace, or a Russian, or a French or a Chinese peace. It cannot be a peace of large nations--or of small nations. It must be a peace which rests on the cooperative effort of the whole world."

Granderson goes on to express gratitude to Obama apologizing for America's mistakes: "testing syphilis on unsuspecting Guatemalans in the 1960s," "reneging on the promises made to the Filipino veterans who helped us fight in World War II" and apologizing "for the unintentional burning of the Qurans in Afghanistan."

And somewhere amid all that, Granderson chastises Rich Santorum, Mitt Romney and Newt Gingrich for maintaining a "no apology theme" for the sake of a few "misguided cheers" from their base.

The point is that America resides in a globally connected world where other nation’ feelings and viewpoints must be respected, even when said nations refuse to show us the same courtesy. Ironically, this is the exact difference between a child and a grown-up. In this case, however, it’s the difference between an undeveloped nation and a civilized one.

People ask why we must be so courteous when the Afghanis don’t show us the same courtesy. Well, that’s why we’re the #1 nation in the world, partna’! Because we’re above the fray!

"Our light as a nation shines brightest not when we tout our greatness but when we behave selflessly. The core of our character is epitomized by our willingness to fight injustices beyond our borders. But all that is undermined when we ignore the injustices -- intentional or not -- that America commits. Acknowledging that we [ourselves] are not above reproach only adds to our credibility." / Granderson

American Exceptionalism, Biatch! (haha)

Mind you, GREAT comment by a guy named Sid:

["American exceptionalism" is fine with me. But when you confuse it with "American perfection," you prove yourself a weak-minded arrogant fool.]

// Reproductive McCarthyism

My God...

If passed, the Life Defense Act of 2012 would require the state of Tennessee to publish the names and information of abortion doctors and their patients on a public forum accessible by the type of people who might harm them -- much like they harmed Dr. George Tiller in 2009 by killing him!

In particular, any chick who gets an abortion would have her age, race, county, marital status, education level and pregnancy record listed on a public forum.

WTF? This is the biggest invasion of privacy and infringement upon freedom from religion that I have ever witnessed in my entire life. They're basically trying to shove their Christian doctrines down everybody else's throats.

SMH...

\\ The Never-ending Stalemate

Here's the deal. I'm not very good with financial stuff. So when it comes to numbers like this, I like the charts and graphs provided by financier Steven Rattner, as they help me make sense of what is otherwise mumbo jumbo.

Obama>>>

Increase revenue by $1.4T over 10 years via increased taxes.

Cut spending by $0.2T over 10 years.

Ryan>>>

Decrease revenue by $4.1T over 10 years via reduced taxes. He has mentioned using "tax expenditures" to bring the loss back to $0, but he hasn't specified any specific expenditures yet.

Cut spending by $3.5T over 10 years by reducing civilian/military pensions, veterans' pensions, disability compensation, food stamps, unemployment compensation, earned income / child tax credits and family support & child nutrition programs.

///

Which plan makes more sense? Personally, I think making the rich pay slightly more and making moderate spending cuts makes far greater sense.

Mind you, I think Obama needs to up his spending cuts, because $0.2T over 10 years is a joke. He could do this without hurting nearly as many Americans by cutting military expenses and tightening entitlement eligibility requirements, for a start. Meanwhile, Paul Ryan needs to stop targeting the poor and disadvantaged and learn the fucking meaning of shared sacrifice!

Meh....

// Still-Blue Balls

Alright. About to hit the sack, but first I shall enlighten ya’ll with three things I know:

#1. I know that I need to clean my desk because I’m tired as all hell of seeing a GOT DAMN ANT pop up on my desk every FRIGGEN 2 MINUTES! What the hell, man!? Does this look like a picnic table? It’s because I have this stupid window fan, and the little bastards keep crawling in here. Ya’ll just better pray I don’t find your Queen, because I will so crush her tiny little head with my pinky finger, bitches!

#2. I know that I greatly miss my Saudi Arabian friend who loves to spend hundreds of dollars on e-cigarettes each month. Where are you, pal, BFF, boo boo? I miss ya, man! Hahah. 4 real, though! Come on, now! Show Daddy some love. I know you want to! I’m just being jokey jokey, of course, though you’re more than welcome to make another purchase or just donate directly to SaxenasSuperPAC@yahoo.com.

#3. I know that I will never work for love again. When I work my muscles, they get bigger. When I work work, I get paid. But every single time I work for love — ask a chick a lot of questions, get to know her, listen to her stupid-ass problems and start to give a flying fudge popsicle about her — I get hurt. I’m done, son! 30 years of experience and endless heartbreak are enough for me. I quit!

PS – This doesn’t mean I’m becoming gay, you stupid asses! (SMFH!)

Night.

\\ Trayvon

RIP Trayvon, but I am glad of one thing... that Americans from all backgrounds are coming together to share their disgust at this whole situation. I'm seeing and hearing anger, frustration and outright disgust from everywhere. While this country has its issues, it's good to see most folks outraged at the travesty that occurred here. It shows a level of humanity that sometimes I feel is missing from this world.

Here is a kind of rebuttal, though, courtesy of my good and very brilliant friend Stephen McMickens. Let me tell you a bit about him. He came up from the hood. This man has literally had other people die in his arms. I talk all hood sometimes, but Stephen is the real deal. Now, I'm not voicing an opinion in favor of or against what he's saying. I'm just sharing it. Though I have some black in me, this is too deep for me too comment. So for the time being, I'm just the Asian messenger boy carrying a bag of curry chicken and egg rolls, lol. Daps, though, at Stephen for thinking critically.

[*~R.I.P to all the Trayvons out there who died innocently, & whose cases have gone unsolved/without justice~* It bothers me that we all can come together & take a stand when another race kills 1 of us outrageously, but can't stand up & fight when our own people are killing each other over nothing. Even kids & babies have been killed, mother, grandmothers, aunties, uncles, dads, & cousins. What about them? Who's fightig for them? Who's fighting for their justice? Think of all the people hit by tray bullets or targeted over someone else. More people have been killed in Black on Black violence than any over 3 World Wars. #Let'sBeReal #WiseUp]

\\ Will You Marry Me, Bill Maher? – No Homo

Bill Maher is the man!

[When did we get it in our heads that we have the right to never hear anything we don’t like? If you see or hear something you don’t like in the media, just go on with your life. Turn the page or flip the dial or pick up your roll of quarters and leave the booth.

The answer to whenever another human being annoys you is not “make them go away forever.” We need to learn to coexist, and it’s actually pretty easy to do. When the lady at Costco gives you a free sample of its new ham pudding and you don’t like it, you spit it into a napkin and keep shopping. You don’t declare a holy war on ham.

I don’t want to live in a country where no one ever says anything that offends anyone. That’s why we have Canada. That’s not us. If we sand down our rough edges and drain all the color, emotion and spontaneity out of our discourse, we’ll end up with political candidates who never say anything but the safest, blandest, emptiest, most unctuous focus-grouped platitudes and cant. In other words, we’ll get Mitt Romney.]

HAHAHAHA @ "That’s why we have Canada."

My motto is this: If you're offended by somebody, instead of asking for an apology, just talk some good ol' fashioned shit about them. It’s the real American way, bitches!

// The Return Of The Lewis

The man is back with a plan, Stan! Jason Lewis delivered a thought-provoking show today. Even the music was good, save of course for the über-corny opening theme song.

Anyway. Uh… he talked about so much shit that I’ve forgotten half of it by now.

#1. The Supreme Court will begin hearing oral arguments regarding “Obamacare” come Monday. Lewis went on and on about how it’s unconstitutional to force citizens to purchase health insurance.

Here’s the deal, pal. I’ll gladly remove that portion of “Obamacare” if and only if you allow me to introduce a public option to the people. You always talk about giving people a choice. So why not allow them have the choice of a public option?

#2. Jason also spoke about how he dislikes when the federal court imposes rules on state courts, such as is the case with mandatory sentences. I kind of agree. For instance, I think all sentencing should lie strictly in the hands of our duly elected local officials, i.e., our judges and prosecutors.

However, unlike Mr. Lewis, I don’t view federalism as some big bad wolf. If nothing else, federalism prevents out-of-control states who enacting laws that are outrageous. If a state were to decide that dwarves cannot visit strip clubs, for instance, I would have no qualms with the federal government intervening. I know that’s a weird example…

#3. Jason knocked the ball out of the park with a comment regarding al-Qaeda. He decreed that al-Qaeda is nothing more than a group of wannabe potentates who trick weak-minded, mentally disturbed individuals into committing “Jihad” (public suicide) under the guise of religious principle. That was by far the most brilliant thing I’ve ever heard the man say. Kudos, Jason.

\\ Traditional Family Programming!

p for a bit. Because Seinfeld has been getting preempted lately for basketball, I've been watching House of Payne instead. And I gotta tell you... it's a really positive show. It's admittedly not that funny, but it has more moral fiber, class and character than 90% of the garbage on ABC and NBC (Cougarville, Dickville, Penisville, Bachelorville, etc.). And it has interesting story lines. Unfortunately, most people dislike it because it's not obsessed with wee-wees and hoo-hoos.

I'm reading reviews on IMBD right now and it just disgusts me how people rip into this show.

// Who’s The Socialist Now, Bitch?

This is an interesting editorial. The writer, a William J. Bennett, argues that providing more and more federal aid only causes tuition rates to keep rising. Why? According to Bennett, and free-market ideology, in fact, "much like the effects of subsidies on health care and the house market, increasing student aid" insulates colleges from having to pursue cost-cutting measures like "improving productivity or efficiency."

Thus, an increase in financial aid leads to higher costs, which in turn requires another round of student loans. Mind you, federal aid itself isn't solely responsible for college price inflation. Other factors such as "alumni donations, the expansions of institutional services and the ever-increasing demand for higher education" also play a role.

But the point is that increasing aid certainly isn't making the situation any better. It doesn't help either that "institutional performance" isn't keeping up, what with the six-year graduation rate of bachelor's students going from 52% in 1997 to only 56% in 2009. Consider also that the total in student loan debt is 23% higher than the total in credit card debt!

He ends by praising Obama for saying the following:

"We can't just keep subsidizing skyrocketing tuition. So let me put colleges and universities on notice. If you can't stop tuition from going up, the funding you get from taxpayers will go down."

Exactly. Force the universities to cut costs by taking away federal aid.

My God... an instance in which free-market ideology actually works. And the irony is that it's being carried out by Mr. Socialist himself :-).

// Final Thoughts

I think Seth MacFarlane reads my shit. If you do, thanks for putting me onto Fringe! I LOVE that show now. Just got done 2nite with the ep where Olivia learns about Peter being from the other universe. #SWAG!

Take Care Of You (Drake/Rihanna)

I chose this song because there’s a really special woman who heart was recently broken, but whom, if she’ll let me in, I’ll do everything in my power to care of, including losing weight, quitting smoking, cutting down on my drinking and working 10x harder at my Web marketing business. <3

//////

The dog is officially gone. She won’t be returning, and I’m very happy about it. She’s in a better home, and I’m free of all her damn dog hair. Plus, I feel less stressed. So all is good in that department.

Thoughts Galore

I started out in a very hateful mood, but my attitude quickly made a 180 courtesy of the most special woman on Earth! I honestly didn’t write that much, though, so it’s whatever.

// Soulja Boy

Why do kids, many of them just out of highschool, worship Soulja Boy as if he’s a God? I respect him to a degree and I appreciate his chatroom, but the only reason he’s where he’s at in life is because Collipark gave him a chance in 2007. I strongly believe and in fact know that there are millions of people out there with just as much drive and passion, who would excel just as well as Soulja if they were merely given the opportunity within whatever field they practice.

Obviously, the world doesn’t function like this. Most of us must grind 40/50+ hour weeks just to barely scrape by in what are admittedly some of the worst economic times the world has ever faced. Meanwhile, a guy like Soulja Boy goes into the studio maybe 30 minutes each day and makes millions from it. The rest of the time, he merely pays other people to complete his work—to design websites, create products and promote his brand.

Am I hating on his wealth? No. Am I presenting a truthful analysis of his life? Hell yes. He has it relatively easy compared to us—the 99% of the population who will never stumble on such a golden opportunity, despite whatever talents we may each possess. And yet, these children worship him like he’s Mahatmas Ghandi or Martin Luther King, Jr, as if his music and movement will somehow resolve all of the world’s dilemmas.

Many of these kids have never even left their own neighborhoods, let alone their states and countries. They’ve never seen firsthand how other people live. They’ve never talked to a homeless person, let alone volunteered at a homeless shelter. To them, in fact, we should look down on the homeless, because “broke niggaz” make them sick. Rather, we should worship money makers like Soulja Boy, regardless of their true character.

The irony is that he doesn’t give a flying fuck about any of his fans. The other day while in the room, he shouted, “I just bought a new chopper; Merry Christmas, bitch!” It’s as if he’s completely oblivious to the economic turmoil brewing outside his fairytale-like life. And yet, I marvel at how these naïve children blindly follow him, somehow imagining that they’re lives will mirror his own if they just reach out to him. What a pity, indeed.

I’m not saying they cannot enjoy his music and appreciate him in some form or another, but the worship is shameful. If they’re going to show such reverence, I’d rather they show it to all the single mothers and fathers struggling just to put food on the table; all the teachers and educators working lousy conditions for a chance to make a difference; and the billions of people who work 10x harder than Soulja Boy every single day for a chance just to survive.

SMH. You got a whole generation of idiots who listen to hiphop as if it’s gospel. They’re so blinded by talk of the Illuminati and directions to “stop snitching” that they’re completely blind to the real world: to REALITY. And sadly, most of them won’t ever wake up from this stupor. They’ll just follow along all their lives like zombies, completely incapable of paying close attention, thinking critically and challenging the thoughts and ideas around them.

Sorry again @ SODMG fans, but I’m not a dick rider. Nor am I a Soulja hater. I’ve written rants about Joe Scarborough (a renowned American pundit), Grover Norquist (a renowned dick), Jon Stewart (a renowned Jew), President Barack Obama and now Soulja Boy. When I have something on my mind, I will get it off and mind, and I don’t care whom I offend. I’d rather be real with myself and others than pretend to be something I’m not. #RealTalk

// PS... this time I am hating... but I bet you everything I own and am that I put more thought into this god damn $0 rant than Soulja has ever put into one of his songs. SMFH.

\\ Is Obama A Liberal Or A NeoCon!?

Enter UNESCO, an agency of the United Nations (UN) that promotes international "education, science, and culture in order to further universal respect for justice, the rule of law, and human rights along with fundamental freedoms proclaimed in the UN Charter." In particular, the organization feeds starving people, aids victims of natural disasters, purchases textbooks and desks for poor schools, funds colleges in Africa and much, much, much more.

Here's the kicker. The Obama administration has opted to stop funding UNESCO because it voted in favor of allowing Palestine into the UN, which I guess apparently goes against an antiquated, 20-year-old law "that prohibits American funds for any US entities that accept Palestine as a member."

I would honestly understand if the government stopped funding UNESCO because we're in a bit of a financial crisis, but cutting off funding because the organization voted in favor of democracy --- allowing Palestine to be accepted as a state with the sovereign right to have its issues heard in council -- is just absolutely disgusting and shameful.

By the way, guess which country stepped up to help UNESCO out? Gabon! Yep, the nation of Gabon has donated $2 million to UNESCO. I love my country, but for tonight, God Bless Gabon!

Courtesy The Daily Show! Excuse the rant, but this story ticked me off.

// Final Thoughts

That’s all I got for this week.

OH… one more thing. Tomorrow is a big day for Raleigh. Tomorrow marks the Women’s Empowerment Conference 2012! SWAG!