PSYCHHH GOT U!
So I'm just c/pin' what I wrote this week. Enjoy.
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There ain't enough good women in the world. And many of those who remain frankly aren't up to my standards. Besides this week, I typically work hard as hell toward my future. I may be a smoker, but I intend to live 100 years minimum as an educated, fairly healthy, well-traveled and highly respected star. Society may view me as being at the bottom of the barrel, but to me, I am the world, because it's me I have to deal with first and foremost.
But these women... SMH. Either they #chilling, they #taken or I don't meet their standards. So be it. But I'm not stopping, and I'm not changing, lest I feel the need. And at the moment, I don't feel the need to change a damn thing about myself.
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I get clowned on a lot for being ugly, having no swagg and being a beta male. That's fine; I'm used to it. But by the same token, I have no problem calling people out for being pathetically stupid or disgustingly fat. And if that makes me a jerk, then suck my big, juicy curry-spiced dick, because I’d rather be a jerk than a punk who just sits there and takes it. Point blank.
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Straight up, some people won't show you love, no matter what you do, so fuck them. Save the love for those who are real. I'm not mean or heartless, but neither am I a punk who'll sit around and listen to noise. I got the headphones of my life on, and I'm not taking it off for anyone. Either vibe with me, or leave me be.
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14-year-old online who smokes weed and cigarettes. I didn't start til I was 16. Prior to that, I was getting straight As. It's the reason I'm smart as hell now. I was fortunate enough to get through the majority of puberty and adolescence without fucking up my brain. Congratulations, rappers. SMH! Another child whose only potential includes that of a stripper or prostitute.
You know, the problem is only going to multiply. Millions of these kids are giving birth to kids and raising them up improperly. In turn, their kids will get pregnant even younger and raise their kids even worse. The good news for those who do what they're supposed to is that the majority of these people, though not all (there are always exceptions), will eventually end up poor, unemployed and on government assistance. Though they'll eat up the government (until the government wises up), they'll pose absolutely no competitive threat in the marketplace, which is great for capitalists. Kind of ironic, if you think about it.
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Last night, some fool said what the police do is a sin. No, what the police do is protect and serve. While I dislike those officers who take advantage of their duties, and while I abhor cops getting acquitted for the "accidental" killing of innocents, a nation devoid of quality law enforcement would look a lot like Haiti -- a country known for kidnappings, molestations, rapes and murder galore.
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Have a headache the size of fucking New Jersey. The youth of the world disgusts me, but so do the adults. Everybody's the fucking same. Really do hope something happens in 2012 to jar everybody awake, because everybody fucking sucks.
And oh, I laugh @ conservatives (I've been listening to conservative radio while jogging, because r&b SUCKS). You people want capitalism... you're going to get it in about 20 years when the dumbest generation ever in American history (though the problem is in fact worldwide) starts to take over. The #SouljaBoy gen that cares only about money, bitches, shoes and bling -- the generation that considers itself successful parents if the kids wear the best clothes. Education? What's that got to do with anything? Let's all sing, dance, strip and fuck each other's brains out and then brag about our wealth while others suffer. And let's have even more fun with it by acting that we're so smart and know all about #realtalk because we grew up on the streets <--- that's where REAL KNOWLEDGE exists; didn't you know?
Conservatives have no idea the type of system they are allowing to perpetuate itself. It's actually quite ironic, if you ask me. The sad thing is I may not be alive long enough, as a smoker, to see them reap the fruit they're sowing. And LOL @ Santorum thinking stopping the sale of contraceptives would solve these problems. Really? Are you that daft, boy? Has blindness so pervaded your vision that you can't see the underlying problem -- a society wherein freedom has outrun morality, thus creating a discontinuity unlike anything even the Greatest Generation had ever seen? Research the facts; I've been paying close attention to the news for like 3 years now, and I guarantee you the situation is getting far worse, and not better. And nothing any politician has the power to actually do can stop it. This shit is getting real, and I think it's bloody hilarious.
Being stupid is fly! Obesity is cool! Sexual perversion is awesome! Hatred is raw! Greed is tha bomb diggidy! My penis is the nuclear bomb diggidy! WHAT WHAT!? HOODI HOO!
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You have to be careful about the type of woman you choose. If the woman you're with is willing to engage in sexual relations with someone else because of fame or money (or if a woman you encounter tries to deal with you as per fame or money), she's not a #GoodWoman... she's a #Hoe. And that's perfectly fine, but just as a horse is a horse is a horse and an ugly guy is an ugly guy is an ugly guy, a hoe is a hoe is a got damn motherfu*king hoe, point blank.
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I want to explain the difference between a pervert and myself. Perverts only think about sex. Cats like me also think about emotion. But that doesn't mean I'm some bonerless punk. I lost my virginity to my ex Erica on our first date! I had no clue what I was doing, but I imagine my willingness to learn and put in serious work on the 'Vaginal Block' played a heavy role is us staying together for so long. Shit.... one thing I am not is lazy.
It eventually went bad when she started stripping, but I don't think it was necessarily the stripping itself that caused the breakup. The previous summer (2001), I had quit smoking and drinking. When I got with her, I took up smoking and drinking again, and 6 months later, via her friend, I started popping pills ("Popping Skittles" Google). The latter played a big role in our breakup, because that shit made me crazy. Plus, she wasn't as attentive as I like. A brotha need attention -- time spent not just doing it, but also actually bonding, i.e., watching films/shows, cuddling, talking, etc.
I pursue women online because I really am not feeling the chicks in Raleigh. They too country for me. Stuff like eHarmony works because two people find each other, develop an emotional bond and then make the effort to turn it physical. And I think it's worth it, because "making love" trumps just f**king. Mind you, "making love" doesn't mean it got to be soft and boring. All it means is that it's f**king + love, which I think (from experience) is the shit.
Anyway. Yeah. Real love can develop online, but it does take two mutually interested parties and a willingness to invest in an emotional connection first. Hard to find chicks like that nowadays, though.
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